Friday, June 16, 2017

Let’s get into this jacket ladies and gentleman. Let’s talk about this crazy deal I stumbled upon while riding around Atlanta and my friend randomly wanting to stop at Urban Outifitters. Now I have a rule about shopping at Urban Outiftters, if it isn’t on sale, PUT IT BACK! Literally, the majority of that stuff you can find at a thrift store, or on some hipster’s Etsy account. Where’s the lie? However, I don’t have time to search thrift stores and online shopping is a hassle so I just wait until Urban is having a sale. I could always wait on clothes. But that’s the problem, I always tell myself I could wait on clothes and end up with shoes for days with nothing to wear. So, I’ve been shopping. Reinventing my look (again). Trying to incorporate a little more color to my wardrobe. The sad part is someway, somehow I always result to buying something black or olive green or grey, those are like my go to colors. However, I saw this jacket and I had to have it. The site says $29.99 but I definitely paid $20. (Urban is weird like that) 

I’ve been neglecting my denim. These are my favorite Joe’s jeans that I bought three years ago. I have ripped these jeans more times than I can count but I love them so I just get them patched up. I have a jeans about designer jeans and that’s just buy one pair a year. They’re supposed to last like forever so you don’t need to spend all your money on a pair everytime you go shopping. I have bought some cheap little H&M jeans and some BDG as well but their exactly that, cheap little jeans that if I wash and dry probably won’t fit the same. 

I enjoyed this look. Felt great to wear. Got a lot of compliments and that jacket will be a staple in my wardrobe that will transition well into any season. 

Good morning…

There has been so much on my mind that I’m having a hard time articulating. I’m having the worst case of writers block like ever. I know what I want to say but when it’s time for me to write it out I just get stumped and get to a point where I’m lost for words. I’ve been here many times before but this time I feel defeated. I feel that my writers block has gotten the best of me. I feel like my pen is running out of ink. It’s like what else can I say in regards to black people and why black People are so great in every aspect? Why do I still have to stress black lives matter? Why are so many women being mistreated and no one is saying about it? What new trend is even a new trend anymore? I’m at a lost and I feel like my pen is running out of ink.There’s hope though. There’s hope in those frantic scribbles that you do when your pen is dying out on you. You know that there is something left and you keep scribbling until finally something comes out. There’s ink! I’m scribbling and scribbling in hopes that something comes out. Something worth reading, something worth discussing. I’m at a point of beast mode. A can’t stop won’t stop type of thing. I just can’t stop now and that’s in regards to everything. Not just Designer Beanz but life. I wake up near tears some days (today being one of those days) because…i don’t know. But there’s that little teaspoon of hope in me that’s like DAMMIT DARRIUS! Go be great! That little bit of hope is all I have left I feel. It’s the only thing keeping me here and I’m so thankful for that little bit of hope. 

So it looks like my pen still has ink and it looks like hope won again. I say all this to say, be great Beany Babies. Just be fucking great! It’s hard sometimes. The current state of this country is hard to take in sometimes , our lives get out of order but go be fucking great. Keep scribbling those pens and keep breaking the barriers that were set up for your demise. Go. Be. Great.

-Beanz Out

Now, What Was Said About My “Romper”?

It has come to my attention that the new “trend” in men’s fashion is the ‘Romper’. Basically, a jumpsuit. Basically, an adult onesie that you could wear outside the house. This trend has sparked a lot of people’s attention and I have decided to weigh in on it a little bit.

First and foremost, this trend is not new. Overalls, jumpsuits, short jumpsuits and everything in between have been a thing for years. It’s been seen on runways by major designers and it has been apart of almost every major music scene for decades across almost all genres. Every one of us have owned a version of the romper since birth(the onesie). So why all of a sudden is it causing a rawr? I’m not sure. What I’m also not sure of is, who the fuck said fashion trends had a specific gender? Why can’t a man wear a short jumpsuit without his sexuality being in jeopardy? Who ever deemed a trend only for a woman or for a man? And if you’re such a man ,why the hell are you so hyper aware of your sexuality all the time and what people think of it? Clothes do not define who you are and what you like, its fashion. Its made to make you feel comfortable not other people. Lets dig deeper.

Whats really sick is that, its all good when these trends are “white-only”. No one is questioning the white man whose shorts barely cover his ass, no one questions the white man who wears sandals, BUT as soon as a man of color wears these “trends” he’s gay. Help me understand this. I repeat, ITS FASHION! There is no sexuality, gender or anything attached to fashion, if you like it, do what the fuck you do and don’t let anyone tell you anything different. Secondly, its sick that we live in a world where our fashion choices determine how we are viewed by society. This whole masculine, feminine bullshit is absolutely absurd. We have men walking around here suppressing their true feelings because they are scared to express themselves because of the threat of his masculinity. FYI bro, if you are comfortable with yourself and what you like you should not give two fucks about what someone else thinks or says. Be true to you and free your mind from society’s standard of what a man is. We have women walking around here being silent because she’s afraid to accidentally hurt these VERY emotional men’s feelings and she is taught to “stay in a woman’s place” FUCK-ALL-DAT! A woman’s place is the same place as a man, and there is NOTHING more attractive than a woman who defends herself and can hold down herself. FYI SIS, YOU FUCKING ROCK ON YOUR OWN, SPEAK UP!

Back to the subject at hand, this trend is NOT new and it SHOULD NOT be belittled because its a great look. It’s fun, its simple and oh my goodness its so comfortable. Using the bathroom could get a little tricky but oh well. A man’s pant length should not determine his life and why do men’s knees make you so uncomfortable anyway?  Any trend that attracts you, go for it. Go for it. Yes you can pull it off, yes it is for you and don’t let anyone tell you anything different. I will continue wearing my “rompers” or jumpsuits or whatever we want to call them, #issalook and its great in my eyes.

-Beanz Out


Gucci Down to the socks…

There’s always certain designers who capture my attention. Whether it’s for a new trend or some crazy comment made like ” I didn’t make my clothes for black people” , my attention is always captured. As of recent there has been one designer that has all my attention and a lot of my money. (Don’t judge my spending habits). Gucci. Gucci. Gucci. From Beyoncé to every fashionista(o) , Gucci is being worn FLAWLESSLY.

For a while I was sleep on Gucci, I just wasn’t into it. I understood that it’s a classic and yattayattayatta but I just wasn’t with it. Then the Princeton happened. The mule with the fur. I cried when I saw that shoe. There was so many emotions running through my head when I saw that damn shoe. It was like why would they do that? Why don’t I own these ? How could I afford these? Ever since, Gucci has been on my mind. I appreciate the brand for many reasons, they never lost themselves. They keep it classic with a tablespoon on gaudy which is just the right amount of gaudy anyone needs. The pattern play is mind blowing, the fabric quality is superb, everything is just like perfect. They make things where it’s like why the hell would anyone wear that? But that shoe or that bag or whatever is stuck on your mind for days and eventually you fall in love with it. Well that’s what happened to me at least. I could not understand why I was so fascinated with the collection as a whole. Then it came to me. Nostalgia.  I come from a very fashionable family. I remember growing up looking at my parents clothes and even my grandmother and just being amazed with how they pieced things together and how awesome they looked. This admiration helped me develop my own style but I would always say, when I get older I’m going to dress like them. Stylish, fun, cool whatever the adjective was, I was going to do it. Now, here comes Gucci bringing back the old trends I grew up admiring and just couldn’t do because duh, I was a child. Now I’m a big boy and could wear these things so it’s just like, YES! Give it to me! Take ALL my money ( stop judging me).

Gucci understands the time we are in. One fuck up an the brand could be tarnished. As of recent Gucci has added some black magic into it’s advertisements. Big afros and POPPING melanin has taken over Gucci ads and runways. This is very important because as we all know that in black communities, these trends have been trending since the beginning of times and finally, we can identify with a designer who gets it. Fashion is one of the best rebellions there is. It’s safe but it causes a lot of noise. To display people of color looking flawless in their natural state dripping in thousands of dollars will piss some racist off somewhere. The last thing a racist wants to see is people of color doing better than them and being happy about it. The Gucci ads are full of black girl magic and black boy joy and it’s a great thing to see. Black people have always flocked to Gucci since forever but to identify with the brand makes us feel a little bit better about out $600 loafers (I feel the judgment again).

Let me just say this, I’m still a college student so I’m not in Gucci everyday spending all my money. I’m on a ramen noodle budget but every now and then I find money somewhere to enjoy the luxuries that happen to come in designer form( Hello, my blog name is Designer Beanz). Please don’t read this and think “fuck rent lemme go ball out in the Gucci store” NO! Save your damn money and work for those loafers you want, they’ll be there a month or two from now, its ok! Treat yourself when your pockets allow it, and Gucci thank you for showcasing black people and people of color in a way that makes us proud to be who we are.

-Beanz Out

Update: Racism & Work

I haven’t posted in a while because, life. But guess who accepted their first big boy job? Yes Beanie Babies, I am now apart of Teach for America! It’s truly an honor. And it was perfect timing because I’m ready to say “KISS MY BLACK ASS” to my current employer, Nordstrom. Which brings me into the point of this post, inequality within the work place. So, get a little closer into your screens and catch this.

So, at work we have to wear a third piece which is like no big deal for me because I’m king of jackets at this point. I have a jacket for like every mood, season, occasion, doesn’t matter I’m well prepared with jackets. My favorite jacket is my thrifted American Eagle denim jacket with “BLM” painted on the back. For those who don’t know BLM stands for Black Lives Matter. Now, I’ve been wearing this jacket to work for over a year now with no problems. I’ve had customers ask what it means and I tell them and they never have a problem with it. It’s either a “oh ok cool” or a “right on brother!” Just depends on who it is. So of course, spring is here, I wanted to do a simple denim on denim look with a loafer. Left class and headed to work like I do everyday. Now let’s pause, I believe in wearing your beliefs and for whatever reason some people still have a bad taste in their mouth about Black Lives Matter and since I don’t want to discuss why black lives matter every day of my life, I simply had BLM put on it which literally could mean, anything. Bacon,lettuce and mayonnaise. Booty,lips and manners. Believe, love and magic. I don’t know I could do this all day. And the importance of these pieces of clothing no matter what they say or stand for is to let people know, this is who I am, this is what I’m about and I don’t have to say it. Isn’t that what fashion is anyway? Self expression ?

Anyways, so I’m at work politicking with a co-worker and another co-worker of mine decides to walk up to us and goes “they let you wear that jacket to work?” Let’s pause again. I’ve been wearing this jacket for over a year now. Also, this is the same co worker who likes to call black men thugs because of what they have on, this is the same co worker who brags about people she has gotten fired because they said something to her that wasn’t to her standards, this is also the same co worker who voted for Donald. Anyways, this is how the conversation went.

Co-worker: They let you wear that jacket to work?

Me: Yes.

Co-Worker: That’s interesting because they didn’t let me wear my “it ain’t easy being sleazy” shirt to work

Me: Uhm, so you’re comparing my BLM jacket to your shirt that says it’s not easy being sleazy?

Co-Worker: Yeah! It’s not fair! I’m offended!!

Me: Why are you offended?

Co-Worker: Because its offensive !

Me:Well you know who offends me? Your president.

Co-Worker: Ok but don’t all lives matter ?

Me: They do but people like you and your president tend to target people of color and black people, hence why black lives matter.

Co-Worker: Oh really? Ok. Well I’ll see you in HR.

Girl! G-I-R-L!!! I was so confused. Like how dare she? The audacity of her to try to pick an argument with me while I’m at work. But I was so unbothered I just continued to work and I did mention it to my managers what had taken place and they were just as confused me because again I’ve been wearing this jacket for over year now(I’m going to keep bringing that up). But here’s the gag, swallow whatever you’re drinking or chewing because I’m about to blow your life. After she leaves, she calls the department and asks to speak to me. When I picked up she’s like ” Haha! I really got you didn’t I? Oh man! That was funny! You know I was playing right ? I mean why would I care what your jacket says? I love you! Bye”. Only thought that went through my mind was “What kind of white magic is this?” Like I was so blown! I felt like I was in the matrix.

Let’s be very clear, no one plays like that! Like no one. Also, behind every I’m playing is a lot of I’m very serious. This lady is always reaching on into the racists pool of problems and she expects me to think she was playing.

So the next day I was off, and apparently she went around telling people what she did making light of the whole situation. FYI: the majority of my department is black. There’s two Asians and three other white women, one who is married to a black man and has a baby by him. So no one was on her side. She opened her damn mouth so much it eventually got to upper management and then became an HR issue(head of HR is also black). I didn’t return to work until the day after and guess what the hell they told me, I couldn’t wear the jacket I’ve been wearing for over a year to work anymore. So I’m like, are you guys going to buy me a new jacket because now I’m offended. Basically, it’s ok for this white woman to openly make racist remarks and attack people at work but I can’t wear a jacket that say BLM which can literally mean bacon, lettuce and mayonnaise? I was enraged. So enraged I had to call my mother. Sometimes you just have to call your mom and she said something to me that calmed me all the way down “People like that need small victories like that to make them feel bigger than they are,let her have this small victory because yours will be way bigger” and yes God it was!

It doesn’t matter what I wear or how I wear it, someone is going to be offended or make me a target for something. It’s all apart of being black in America. I can wear a suit and tie and still be referred to as a thug when I’m the furthest thing from a thug all because I’m a black man. And that’s the sad truth of it all. Nordstrom telling me I couldn’t wear my jacket was a slap in the face for me but again, small victories. I’m pro black with or without the jacket so it’s ok. My stance is still the same, black lives matter and I don’t have to explain why they do, they just do. Fashion is self expression and if we can’t express ourself with our outfits, what are we supposed to do ?

-Beanz Out